Confessions of a wounded healer
We all have unhealthy patterns of behaviour that we’re prone to fall into, and it’s frightening how quickly these can take hold and become routine. Even when we’ve spent years working to release them, I was reminded recently just how easily and insidiously they can worm their way back in.
I’m usually very careful about keeping balance in my life and setting aside plenty of time for self-care. When your job is to help others then you have to make sure you’re in the best shape possible to do that as effectively as you can. But the changes wrought in our lives by COVID took away several of my established self-care rituals.
The past is a present for the future
I know there’s still a very long to go, but since the Autumn Equinox I’ve felt and witnessed a strong upsurge of creative, innovative energy. So many new projects, organisations, collaborations, and community enterprises leaping into life. It’s not going to change things overnight but it’s giving my natural optimism and faith in the future a welcome boost.
I watched a TV programme yesterday by a historian who was comparing the impact and effects of the Black Death, a pandemic which ravaged Europe during the medieval period (and indeed on and off through to the 19th century).
Language as a vision of life
I’m learning to speak Welsh, something which has been a long time coming. Since I moved to West Wales two and a half years ago I’ve been hearing the language spoken locally all the time, and it has rekindled my love for and curiosity about it.
It started as a child coming to Wales often for family holidays, being fascinated by the musical-sounding place names and feeling intrigued enough to find out what they meant. Even at that young age, I think I could sense the deep interconnection between the Celtic naming of places and the land; a sacred honouring which reflected our ancestors’ sense of belonging to the earth. An honouring which was to become central to my way of living and finding meaning in the world.
Back to the garden
The North and South nodes in my birth chart tell the story of my soul journey so far and where it’s longing to get to in my current incarnation. I’m moving from Scorpio (South node) to Taurus (North node), so my soul focus is all about finding the sacred in the simple details of ordinary life, investing everyday reality with divinity, and learning to calm the over-dramatic tendencies that stormy emotions and high levels of intuition can bring.
It’s clear to see this North node destination actively directing my life so far, in my embracing of a more simple life in terms of needs and reducing outgoings, harmonising with the environment and reducing impact on it.
The shadow of fear
“If light is love, then fear is its shadow” – L.J. Vanier
When did we become so fixed and inflexible? Why is it so difficult, as a quick glance at social media will tell you, to listen with an open mind to views that are different to our own, or to accept that other people may not respond to a particular situation in exactly the same way we do? The truth is you’ll never agree with anyone 100% of the time because you’re unique, a one-off. And thank Source for that, because it makes for a beautiful, exciting, and evolving world.
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