The Higher Self by Andrew Trimmer

This part of you which retains its connection to Spirit and does not enter the physical body is called your Higher Self. It is the aspect of you that is pure, perfect divinity, and it possesses all the divine qualities of compassion, love, wisdom, receptivity, non-judgment, intuition, creativity, inspiration, peace, open-ness and connectedness. The Higher Self is the very best possible version of you because it is, in fact, who you truly are!

Your body is locked in time and space, and when your soul enters the physical body it forgets all about who it really is and where it comes from. It becomes very much identified with those two limitations of time and space and all the accompanying physical, emotional and mental experiences of life on earth as a material being. But this is just an illusion, albeit a compelling and convincing one – just watch the Matrix films!

Your soul is not limited by time or space, or anything at all in fact, as it is always connected to Spirit through the Higher Self. The Higher Self possesses infinite knowledge and wisdom because it is a part of that infinite knowledge and wisdom. It knows why you are here, what your soul needs, and how you can fulfil those needs. It knows the answers to all the questions you will ever want to ask, and so it is important to learn to communicate with it. Working with the Higher Self is essential for healing at a soul level and establishing a relationship with it is intrinsic to my Spirit Release work with clients.

So the purpose of all spiritual development, whatever path you follow to achieve it, is to re-connect with your Higher Self so you can claim and live as your true identity – that of an eternally perfect and divine being of unlimited love, light, wisdom and power. In this way, you nourish and heal not only yourself but also humanity, the planet and everything beyond which is the main purpose for you being here.

A very simple way of connecting to the divine within you and the Higher Self is given in my post Aura and Energy Protection.

Basic aura and energy protection

Awakening by Marco Brown

Focus within and locate that inner divine spark that we all carry inside us. It could be anywhere, so just remain open to your own feelings and intuition, although most commonly it’s located in the heart or the solar plexus. Once you’ve found it, focus on it and allow that spark to grow into a flame and then a bright light, which continues to expand outwards to fill your entire body. See that light expanding through your chest, pelvis, shoulders and arms to the tips of your fingers, thighs and calves to the tips of your toes, and up your neck to the top of your head. Feel that light penetrating and bathing your entire body – the skin, the blood vessels, the muscles, the organs, the bones and the cells.

Then allow that light to expand out and beyond you, above your head and below your feet, to each side, in front and behind you, to a distance that feels comfortable for you. This might be three feet all around you, it might be less or more. Always follow your own intuition. Continue to visualise this light expansion until you see yourself completely encapsulated in a bubble of beautiful, divine light.

Know that this light is of the purest and highest vibration, and nothing negative can touch or stick to you while you remain within it. And that really is it! I recommend practicing this exercise at the beginning and end of every day, even when you don’t particularly feel in need of protection, as it makes you feel wonderful. Not only does it protect, it also cleanses and energises your physical body and all your subtle bodies, and reminds you of your true divine origins and the power you carry within you.

Adding a connection to Spirit

For those who want to, you can take an extra step. After completing the basic exercise above, focus above your head and imagine a light which represents your connection to Spirit – this could be the sun, the moon, a star, whatever feels right for you. Draw the light from this Source down through the top of your head and further down to meet the divine spark within you (wherever that was located for you). Feel that connection, pulsing with divine light and love, and know it to be present at all times. Allow the two sources of light to mingle, flow all around your body and aura, and flow down into your feet and out into the earth, connecting you firmly with the planet.

This added step can just give you that extra feeling of support when you need it, for example when you know you are going into difficult situations or places where you know there is negative energy, and an increased awareness of the presence of your Higher Self, guides and helpers with you throughout the day.

I always teach spiritual and psychic development together, because I believe they belong together. It is possible to be psychic and not spiritual, but impossible to be spiritual and not psychic because once you make that connection to your true spiritual identity you have access to unlimited energy and intelligence through the source of All That Is. It is important to develop spiritual awareness as you develop psychic awareness because otherwise our egos, the very human part of our identities with all its hurts and wounds, can misuse those psychic gifts for personal power and gain. This is turn has a karmic impact on your spirit and can cause a lot of struggle for you in the future, so I always teach the two together. I have done a lot of healing on a past life where I misused my spiritual gifts and I know it’s been a long hard slog to get back to my current state of awareness, so I would not wish that on any of my students!

Unfortunately, there is still a tendency to think of psychics and spiritual people as being airy fairy with their heads in the clouds; all wispy and ineffectual. This couldn’t be further from the truth for anyone who has developed effectively. If you develop spiritually and psychically at the same time then it is vital to be fully present and comfortable in your physical body, and to nurture a strong connection to the earth. This is called being grounded.

Being grounded means you can maximise the flow of life force energy in your body and optimise your physical health; you can conduct spiritual energy from the Source and manifest it as a physical reality here on earth to help people and the beautiful planet we live on. A grounded person can access the highest qualities of love, compassion and wisdom that exist in their spirit through its connection to Source and express those qualities to humanity and the earth through their human form. Wow! I always get incredibly enthusiastic when I think about what that means and how much impact it would have if the world were full of people doing exactly that!

The other essential of spiritual and psychic development is to learn to clear and still the mind. Because of that, some form of meditation is a must. There are many different methods of meditating and it doesn’t really matter which one you use, but it is extremely difficult to listen to the quiet, peaceful voice of your spirit when your overactive mind is jabbering away constantly in both ears. In the modern era when we live at a super-fast pace and are bombarded all day with information from all directions, this is especially important. So even if you begin by simply sitting quietly for five minutes every morning breathing as slowly and deeply as you can, you’ll notice the benefits.

It’s all very exciting when you start to become aware that there’s more to life than just the material world, but it can also be confusing and challenging to know where to start.  I suggest you find a teacher you feel drawn to, go with your gut feelings and intuition, and perhaps try out a few of the psychic disciplines such as reading cards, mediumship, numerology or dowsing and see which method you find easiest to work with or generates most interest in you. We are all different and so your strengths and what works for you will not necessarily be the same as for your friend. It’s one of the great spiritual lessons; there is no one like you and you should not be afraid of being different from others!

I didn’t really know where to start or how to begin when I wanted to start my own development, so many years down the line I have created a Spiritual Development Course (available by email or on CD) which can help you to develop your spiritual awareness and psychic ability in  a safe and effective way using the essentials of grounding and meditation. You’ll get to try out a number of psychic disciplines and find out which ones work best for you. You can read more about it here on my courses page: Spiritual Development Course.

The lovely and talented Ava Fleming

I have recently returned from a festival called Majma – a weekend fest of every type of belly dancing (and a bit more besides) in the vibrant energy of Glastonbury. It’s a great way to introduce yourself to many different styles of traditional dance, and you’ll get to see the best teachers in the world show you how it’s done! If you want to see some photos of the event you can take a peek here:

www.majmaphotos.com

I learned a lot from each of my workshop sessions, not least that I should practice more, but the constant theme was the way the teachers guided us through the choreography we were learning. They all explained to us the feelings behind each movement. Fun and laughter were introduced to the difficult task of memorising as we all began saying to ourselves things like, “Hey, I just spotted a nice teapot over there, nooooooooooo I can’t buy that”, “Oh, do I want shoes or Jason Statham more?” and “Please, please, pleeeeeease love me…….

Ava Fleming, who has been voted Bellydancer of the Universe with very good reason, explained that she found it impossible to learn the amount of choreography her profession demands unless she has an emotion to connect to. So as we dance we use our bodies to tell a story and to convey what we are feeling.

So if emotion helps your body to remember (in this case to learn dance moves), doesn’t it also hold true that your body holds the memory of emotions? Every emotion, in fact, that you have ever felt. And it’s easy to see how a particularly traumatic memory of loss, injury or cruelty would become deeply imprinted in the body and, if not properly dealt with and released, remain firmly lodged there. In effect, our bodies tell the story of our lives to those who are sensitive enough to read it.

That is the heart of alternative healing; recognising that our physical bodies, and the subtle energetic bodies associated with them, need to be periodically cleared of those harmful thoughts and feelings. We talk about “expressing” emotions every day and express means to squeeze or push out. You don’t always need to visit a healer, although it’s always good to get some professional and knowledgeable help. Sometimes it can be as simple as using your body in a way which expresses that releasing and clearing – dancing with “shaking off” or “pushing out” movements, shouting or screaming, punching a cushion, or whacking a ball really really hard. I’m sure you can all come up with some even more creative alternatives!

As I moved my body to express the emotions the teachers were showing me, I really felt them. I was there, in that moment, stuck in a difficult dilemma or longing for a sign of love from a distant adored one. It brought home the truth of the phrase “walk a mile in someone else’s shoes.” If you’re struggling with relating to someone in your life, try spending a few moments mimicking their body language and movements and see what new understanding of them that brings.  Equally, if you admire certain qualities in a person and you long to be more like them, do the same. You will find that as you move, you yourself are moved. The body is a truly powerful tool.

The card drawn from my Thoth deck to guide us in 2012 is The Hanged Man. Suitably we have a major arcana card for this great year, which means that there are important spiritual lessons to be learned and applied by all of us – this will be a year of spiritual evolution. It also means that there are strong spiritual energies at work in all our lives and so at times it may feel as if things are out of our control.

In my Thoth deck, the card shows a man hanging upside down from an ankh, with nails in his hands and feet reminiscent of the Christ. He appears to be underwater and just beneath his head lies a coiled snake in a dark pit. At first sight the image can appear frightening, but the man appears to be relaxed, his expression peaceful, and his figure exudes a strength which belies his seemingly vulnerable position.

This surface duality sums up the inner power of this card. It tells us that when we surrender to the Divine, instead of trying to control things ourselves, we find peace. It tells us that when we let go of wanting things to be a certain way, miracles happen and we are stronger than before. The Hanged Man promises that we can see things from a totally new perspective – that our view of ourselves, life and the world can literally be turned on its head, and that this releases us to move forward in new and empowering ways.

In an everyday reading, The Hanged Man can point out that someone is stuck and has reached a stalemate with no possible escape. Usually, this is because they are hanging onto old and outdated beliefs or behaviour patterns that do not allow them to grow and develop. Or they are so set on wanting and achieving a certain outcome that they are trying to force their will on a situation against the natural flow and causing the blockage themselves. Once they face up to the reality of where they are, accept it and then let it go, they can see with new eyes and their situation is infused with the vital energy that has been released. This is what the world needs now; to see where it has become stuck and immobilised in old and unhealthy patterns of being and behaving, and to have the courage and the wisdom to let go of them.

However, as the crucifixion pose of the Hanged Man suggests, this change also involves some sacrifice. There will be some things, attitudes, and structures that we will all have to be prepared to lose to enable the new to emerge. As Jesus said, you cannot pour new wine into old wineskins, as we are finding currently as we try to patch up a failing and flawed financial system! So, we should all individually look at what we need to let go of that may be holding us back, where we have become rigid in our beliefs or expectations, closed off to new ideas and concepts.

We also need to accept that as human beings we don’t have all the answers, and this will be difficult for our political system is largely built around the personal power of certain individuals. This year calls for all of us to give the sacrifice of time – time to connect with our higher selves, for it is only there that we will find the inspiration and the wisdom to make the right choices for the future.

The Hanged Man says that things won’t happen overnight and we shouldn’t be impatient or force change this year. In a sense, we are in the important cocoon stage which allows the caterpillar to dissolve and be reformed as the beautiful butterfly. But if we align ourselves to the Divine and trust in that greater wisdom, then events will begin to unfold naturally and perfectly and effect a transformation that we can only yet dream of.

The Law of Giving by Belinda Paton

I’d already had the idea of writing about giving as it seems very appropriate for the time of year and then to confirm this was right, as often happens with me, I was told of an interesting comment someone had made: “I’m not giving any money away for nothing as it only leads to resentment.” What makes someone feel this way? It’s an interesting viewpoint and it’s obviously the result of real life experiences. But it made me wonder how this same person would respond to a gift of money, because it’s true that the best givers are also those who are best at receiving. And by “givers” I mean those who give with no expectations or conditions, because it sounds as if our disgruntled representative had only experienced the “strings attached” type of giving.

Personally, and as an independent, overactive Aries, I used to find it very hard to accept the gift of help from anyone, even when I really needed it. I would take on impossibly demanding tasks but if someone offered to help then, before I could even think, my mouth would automatically say “I’m fine thanks” or “I can manage”. Then as they walked away I would be squeaking to myself, “What did I say that for? There’s so much to do…..”

What was that about?! Well it was probably about lots of things: a dose of pride “Look how much I can do all on my own!”; a need to prove my own ability; an over-developed sense of duty and responsibility; a desire to please others; a drive to maintain autonomy…….

What finally persuaded me to change though, was the realisation that I was depriving a willing person of the joy of helping me and of showing their love and respect for me in this practical way. There’s a bit of reverse psychology for a pathological people pleaser! I also discovered that more often than not it was much more fun completing the task with some company and support. So I had also been voluntarily depriving myself of joy and pleasure, and that definitely pointed to an underlying self-esteem issue.

Strangely (or not really, considering the perfect balance of universal laws), the more I allowed myself to receive from people – help, compliments, gifts, prayers – then the more able I was to give freely and unconditionally to others. It was as if I needed to understand both sides of the equation for the energy to flow freely, and so the more I could receive the more I could give, and the more I gave the more I received. Simple and wonderful!

So it’s worth asking, as you choose and wrap your presents for others and prepare wonderful feasts for your firends and families, are you a good receiver?  If someone offers to pay for lunch, do you feel the need to reciprocate with “I’ll pay next time,” (rather than simply thanking them graciously)? If someone gives you a gift do you respond with, “You really shouldn’t have,” (rather than just being grateful for their generosity).  If someone compliments you do you immediately try to belittle your accomplishment with “it’s nothing,” or do you find it impossible to accept the praise with a “thank you,”?

If you said yes to any of these questions then I suggest you practise consciously the art of receiving over the coming festive period which will, of course, also allow you to do plenty of giving – but with a fuller and happier heart. May you give and receive in equal and overflowing measure!

Your personal lizard of fear

I love that poem by Marianne Williamson that begins “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.”

But what does that mean? How can we be afraid of our own strength and why would we avoid it? Our strengths can often be hidden in our weaknesses, covered over and cleverly disguised by past hurts and fears of being hurt again in the future. So we limit ourselves because of deep-rooted fears but the thing is most of us don’t know what those fears are and how they are directing our behaviour. If you don’t know what you’re dealing with how can you be strong enough to overcome it? The ancients used to say that you could gain power over an enemy by knowing its name, and that’s exactly what I’m going to talk about.

Fear is one of our oldest inbuilt responses from the days of having to kill for our food and risk being killed in the process. So fear is either worrying about not having enough of something, or of having that something taken away from you in an unpleasant way! Usually fear is there because somewhere along the way you’ve absorbed a certain idea or belief, untrue and unfounded, about the way life is. For example, “I’ll never have enough money”, “No one will ever love me,” “Everyone always ends up letting you down,” “When things go right for a bit I just know it’s all going to go wrong.”  Do any of these sound familiar to you? I know they do to me! Fear has nothing to do with current reality, but projects a belief into the future to make you afraid of what might happen. That’s why millionnaires can still feel financially insecure, and a man with an adoring, devoted wife can still feel unloved. It’s also why a lot of people are not living to their full potential or shining as brightly as they could.

Once you’ve identified what your fear sounds like, you have to recognise that it is not you and be able to detach yourself from it. In her fantastic book Steering by Starlight, Martha Beck suggests you see your fear as a little lizard character (the reptilian brain function!) and give it an apppropriate name. So if you have a belief that nothing ever works out for you, your lizard could be called Mona (a pun on Moaner)! A magical thing happens once you do this – you start to see the funny side of your fear when it kicks in, and it’s impossible to be scared to death while you’re laughing at something so ridiculous.

A really great way to know whether you’re acting from limiting fear or not is to learn how your body feels when it’s presented with it. So first of all remember a decision you made that you know was a good one for you and that made you happy. Go back, relive that choice and notice how it makes you feel. Your body should feel warm, relaxed and open. Now think of a decision you made, perhaps out of duty or because you thought it was the right thing to do, but that turned out to be bad for you. Relive that choice and notice how it makes you feel. Your body will automatically tense, contract or shrink in some way. Now focus on a decision that you have to make now and review each option in turn. How does your body respond to each alternative? The one that leaves you feeling most open, warm and relaxed is the one that will be the most authentic choice for you.

Recently my youngest son decided that he wasn’t enjoying his A level courses and wanted to look for alternatives, but also wanted to stay in our rural location. My own lizard kicked in immediately with “You’ll never find a job in this economic climate,” “You must have academic qualifications to get anywhere in the world,” and so on. I’m not proud but that’s how it was and thankfully he didn’t listen to me! Once I’d managed to tame my pesky reptile ( and had a good chuckle at it) we visited the job centre and the careers office and looked at the options for my wise young man. He was bored with all the study and the theory and loved the idea of getting down to something practical like carpentry, for which he’d always displayed a natural talent. A week later he was enrolled on a carpentry and joinery course at a college nearer home and had been offered an apprenticeship with a carpenter in the small town where we live.

Ahem! I rest my case. When you don’t act out of fear, miracles really can happen!

This cord cutting visualisation is brilliant for helping with all sorts of relationship difficulties and helps you to maintain your own energy. When we are having problems with other people, we often feel exhausted as our energy is being directed to these others through the energetic cords that connect us. This exercise restores your individuality and energy integrity, helping you to move on freely from relationships that have run their course, while removing blockages and unhealthy attachments from within ongoing relationships (don’t worry, it does not harm or end a relationship if you wish it to continue). The cord cutting exercise can be of most help when:

• You have become obsessed with someone and can’t stop thinking about them
• You are finding it hard to let go of or move on from an ex partner, friend or family member or someone dear to you who has passed over
• You are having difficulties within any relationship and cannot seem to communicate with the other person effectively
• You are feeling unduly influenced or pressured by someone

You may need to repeat this exercise more than once, so if you start to feel pulled back or unable to move just repeat it at regular intervals. Over time you will notice the cords diminishing and eventually vanishing altogether.

Cord cutting visualisation

Imagine that you are standing within a circle on the ground. Then draw another circle on the ground in front of you, touching yours but not overlapping it so that the two circles form a figure of eight. See that figure of eight lighting up and pulsing with an intense blue light running around it continually. Imagine the person you wish to clear energy with standing opposite you in the other circle.

Take your awareness to a viewpoint from which you can see both your figures from head to toe. Now ask your higher self and guides to show you where there are energy cords connecting you together. Allow some time for them to appear and be prepared to see anything – thick or thin cords, metal or stringy textures…….it could be anything. There may only be one or you may find many.

For each cord, starting with the one you feel is strongest:

• Ask your higher self and guides what you need to use to cut that particular cord – perhaps a pair of golden scissors, an axe, a chainsaw, a blow torch – do not be surprised by whatever comes to mind!
• Collect up all the bits and for the moment put them at your feet in your circle
• Ask if either of you need any healing where the cord was connected and visualise that happening in an appropriate way if it’s necessary. You may want to put an ointment on the wound, surround it in pink or another coloured light, or put a plaster on it!

When there are no more cords connecting you, if there is anything you need to ask your person to forgive you for then do so now. Also, if you feel you need to forgive them for hurting you in any way do that too (ask for help from your guides and angels if you don’t feel very forgiving!). Take this opportunity to say anything else to them that you’ve felt you wanted to but didn’t have the chance to. Then tell them that they are free to go and send them on their way with love.

Now look down at yourself and see what you’re wearing. To mark the change in energy I want you to take off the clothes you’re wearing and add them to the pile of cut cords at your feet. Ask your higher self and guides how you need to dispose of this rubbish. You may want to burn it on a bonfire, bury it in the ground, dissolve it in acid or throw it out of a plane!

When the cords have been completely destroyed, imagine an expanse of water in which you would really enjoy bathing (a lake, waterfall, the sea for example) and take a dip, washing away any negative or residual energy left behind.

When you feel clean and refreshed, you’ll notice a massive ancient tree in front of you by the edge of the water. It has a new garment hanging on its branches for you to put on. Make your way to the tree and put this garment on.

Sit with your back to the tree trunk for a while, absorbing the strength, peace and calm energy from this tree, knowing that you can return to it at any time in the future if you need to. When you feel ready, gradually allow yourself to return to normal consciousness.

On my daily walk with my dog Jester along the banks of the river Wye, I suddenly began to notice the occasional appearance of fantastic sculptures. They were of natural stones, balanced on top of each other in seemingly impossible ways that defied gravity. They were so expertly positioned, sometimes as one elegant monument and sometimes as a group, that they appeared to be floating on the surface on the water. They always just seemed to materialise out of thin air – one day there was nothing there and the next I would have to stop to marvel and usually gasp at the latest work of art.

I know the idea of being balanced can sound boring to some people, as if it dulls you in some way and makes you uninteresting. These stone pillars were a wonderful example of the true artistry of balance, and proof that it is far from boring. From a strong and sure balance point, as with the stones, you can appear to do the impossible and the extraordinary!

These unexpected treasures found along my path really brightened my day and lifted my heart. They reminded me of the simple beauty to be found in everyday, ordinary objects and of how those objects could be transformed into sublime sculptures when looked at in a different way, from a creative perspective. I always felt a welcome sense of magic and took a moment to send a heartfelt silent thank you to their creator.

One day, I can’t remember the exact time but I know it was quiet and I was the only person around, I actually caught sight of the guerilla artist. He was quietly and methodically going about his task – picking up stones, weighing them, examining them and then carefully placing them. I held my breath as I watched for a while, but I was surprised to find that I didn’t want to interrupt his work. I felt that to introduce myself, to speak to this man may break the spell somehow and he had clearly taken pains not to be noticed. It wasn’t about that for him. So I walked on, sending him my wordless thanks as usual.

Recently a very beautiful river stone configuration appeared by the old town bridge, shown in the photograph here, which prompted me to write this article. I am grateful to my unknown artist for the joy and grace he conveys to all from the generosity and expressiveness of his own heart.

This latest offering has made me think about what I could do to bring joy to people’s lives, not neccessarily as part of my work, for reward or recognition, but just because I know it will shine a little unexpected light into the lives of those whom I may never meet but who will appreciate it all the more.

What about you? What could you do? You don’t have to be a gifted or talented artist or have special skills; as we have seen here, the most simple things when given attention and focus and a bit of imagination become truly magical.

The answer of course is yes, and most of who Lady Capulet is in my performance comes across in her reactions and facial expressions. We are now more than ever a society of words, particularly with the prevalence of texting, tweeting and ever-changing Facebook statuses! But we can lose so much substance without body language, expressions and someone’s physical energy to refer to. This silent conversing can tell us so much about who someone really is and the true meaning behind their words. I have noticed an increase in people feeling inadvertently insulted or put down by comments they’ve received in an email or a text and I can understand why. When you have just the words to go on you tend to take them purely at face value, when actually the inference behind them can be anything but what is actually being said. As every sarcasm and irony-loving Brit will know!

So that was lesson number one – the vital importance of non-verbal communication. I dearly hope that with the growth of instant virtual chatting we don’t lose these more intuitive methods of relating through gestures and expressions. When it really comes down to it, reading “I love you” in an email or text doesn’t hold half as much warmth as an all-embracing hug, or a warm and sympathetic glance from a pair of understanding eyes.

So on to lesson number two.I had a telling conversation during the rehearsal of the classic “rebellious daughter” scene with the actors playing my husband Lord Capulet and my daughter Juliet. I have two sons so I have never experienced the mother/daughter dynamic from the maternal point of view, and was lucky enough to have a wonderfully close relationship with my own mother so there wasn’t much personal experience I could carry over into this more spiky partnership. My Juliet filled me in on some of the difficulties and challenges from her experience, and we all swopped stories about our own parents, their relationships and how that affected us as children. What was fascinating was that all of us could see (and the oldest of us is approaching 70) that we still modified our adult behaviour and reactions according to our childhood experiences. The child in all of us was still to some extent caught up in past events and it was that child that responded to current crises, not the adults we are now. In my spirit release work I know and understand the importance of inner child work to facilitate wholeness and harmony in someone, but the far-reaching implications of this have never been so clearly presented to me in the course of one conversation.

In the end I think connecting these two vital concepts together brought me to what I feel is a sensible and rounded portrayal of Lady Capulet. She was being faced, in the shape of her own daughter, with the mistakes and mistreatment she herself had suffered at the same age and it was extremely difficult to stomach.The child she had been was at odds with the adult she had become and this meant that what she said was often only half the story. Her body language, how she said things, and when and why she didn’t say them at all, were the true keys to making sense of this sad and frustrated woman.

If you’d like to know more about spirit release work (encompassing inner child healing) you can read about it on my healing page.

If you’d like to catch me as Lady Capulet in Romeo and Juliet, we are touring mid Wales through to the beginning of September and you can find the dates and times on the Willow Globe website.