When I first decided to book myself a week of solo retreat, I had some interesting responses. Everything from “won’t you be afraid on your own?” (umm….no), and “won’t you feel lonely?” (are you serious? And I’m taking my dog with me!) through to “why would you want to do that?”
Well as you know I’m progressing towards the Mystic phase of my life, becoming “she who holds her wise blood inside”*. At this point in the process, when my moon cycles began to appear less frequently, I noticed a nagging restlessness and irritability with the company and demands of others. Not that I loved them any less or wanted to call a permanent halt to any relationships, but I was hearing a call to be alone with my thoughts and feelings.
Healing occurs in layers, and there’s always more to do. Even if you intend that you go straight to the root cause to clear something, which I always do these days, it may still take a while to filter that healing completely through all your bodies – physical, emotional, mental and spiritual.
I read a wonderful article recently about the different ways we can respond to the need for change we see around us in the world, and how each approach is just as valuable and indeed essential (you can read Sharon Blackie’s article here: Resistance: the Mythos and the Logos). As energy and lightworkers, which is what we are as soon as we are conscious of our spiritual self, we can do so much as individuals at a time when it’s all too easy to feel powerless.
My spiritual path in recent years has been a solitary one, apart from one or two workshops and lots of selective reading. I love to read as it allows me to receive and digest information in my own time, assessing whether it resonates strongly enough to enhance my own practice and understanding.
I confess, at heart I am a bit of a lone wolf.
For most of us 2016 was a challenging year of incredible highs and the deepest of lows. The intensity of the energetic shifts has been tough on our physical bodies as they have struggled to integrate the frequencies that our spirits have welcomed so warmly and easily. My sense was that for the last 12 months we’d been journeying through a transforming but sometimes searing fire and that the new year would offer some respite from this, so I was delighted to turn over the card for 2017.
The card I drew is the Nine of Cups, which in my Thoth deck bears the subtitle of happiness. Do I hear sighs of relief? Well I’m right there with you! The first thing that leaps out at me is that this is a key number of the divine feminine.