As I’ve now adjusted to life within four walls again, I find myself feeling uncertain about what comes next. While I was on the move, I always had something or somewhere to aim for, my next destination was very clearly and obviously ahead. Now, I feel that things should be noticeably different, should have moved on from the last time I was stationed in one place, but how does that look exactly? What does that mean for my life, my work and how I offer myself to the world? At the moment I don’t have a clue, and it’s not a comfortable feeling, but if I’ve learned anything over my years of spiritual development it’s to trust, trust and trust some more. As usually happens with me, many of my recent clients have come to me struggling with a similar dilemma. So it seems the right time to present my essential guide to those times of uncertainty…..
Relax, don’t panic
Every process in nature has a phase when nothing appears to be happening on the surface, but underneath or within the energy is as vibrantly powerful as a volcano. It’s completely natural to shift all your focus and resources within for a while to fuel a transformation (because that’s where you’re heading).
Allow, don’t feel guilty
There’s nothing wrong with not knowing or not doing. I know we’re programmed to be constantly active, in pursuit of some goal, but running around will just make you very tired as well as confused. Give yourself permission to immerse yourself in pondering, reflecting, meditating, and being inspired. Embrace the cluelessness! I’ve never yet seen a stressed caterpillar wondering whether it’s ok to enter the cocoon for a while. And they always emerge as a beautiful butterfly.
In any way that feels right to you. You might want to record your dreams which I guarantee will also contain some useful clues for you. Perhaps do 10 minutes of stream of consciousness writing every morning; no censoring or editing but just see what flows through your pen or keyboard. Again, watch for the pearls swirling in the midst of the angst. If you’re an evening person, you could note down anything that moved you, brought you joy or seemed significant during your day. Journalling encourages you to see that there is a process underway, and things are happening, even if it’s only in the inner realms for the moment.
Make one practical and positive change
Something that you’ve been wanting to do for a while but haven’t got round to. It could be as simple as rearranging your bedroom, trying out juicing as part of your diet, or reading an interesting book. I find this satisfies the need to feel like you’re producing a result, while opening yourself up to new energies and ways of being. It might not be directly related to the answer you’re looking for, but you’re setting the energy for change and receptiveness to the new.
Hang out with the High Priestess
Find a High Priestess Tarot card that you really resonate with, and use her as a focus for personal meditation and ritual. If you don’t own a deck, you can easily browse through some fabulous images of cards on the Internet and print out your favourite. Sleep with her under your pillow or pin her up somewhere you’ll see her regularly throughout the day. Exploration and study of this card (just looking at the image, noticing every detail and how it speaks to you) will help you access the inner wisdom and knowledge that you’re searching for, and enable you to remain calm and serene while you’re waiting for that gnosis to materialise in your conscious mind.
Know you will know
However impossible that seems right now, trust in this absolute truth. Know also that I’m right with you; you’re not alone.